A Brand New Day....

I came across this quote today:

This quote has really opened up my eyes, and has reminded me that I need to keep an open mind about life. To take trials as they come, and do what I need to, to overcome them the best way that I can. To be happy with myself and remember that it is not a bad life, just a bad day. I know that what lies ahead of me is not going to be easy and at times I may want to break down again, and honeslty that may happen, but in the end, I hope that I can find the good in what the future holds for me.

I am still not happy with who I am right now, but I am working on it. That's all I can do right now. Work on me. 

I still have nightmares most nights, about him, about life, about not knowing where I am going or who I am. I wake up shivering, feeling like a pound of bricks is resting on my chest. I can't breathe. The nightmares feel so real. I don't know what I can do to make them go away. I think I have come to the reality that they will never go away. But I can't let being scared run my life. I have to move on.

All of what I have said is so much easier said then done. I really hope I can do this.........